I Stay Alive Because.....



I stay alive because:

Of quiet morning drives to work, the fresh new baby day ahead of me, deep summer-green leaves all around me - reminding me that life is so temporary, so fragile, so very vibrant at times.

I stay alive because:

I let soulful eyes meet mine every day, some full of joy, some full of pain, some full of such great hope that maybe, maybe somebody loves them. I love them. I love you. I do.

I stay alive because:

Chocolate cake, and sautéed spinach, and morning coffee, and good music, and thought provoking movies, and soul touching conversations, and sitting at my favorite window looking out into the very alive world and sometimes the very quiet world, and the smell of morning, and old/new/good friends, and Sundays, and pretty things, and being put to sleep by the moon at my window and being awakened by the sun tap dancing on my face, and my sweet love showering me with sweet feelings are all just too irresistible to not want more of here in this little precious life of mine.  Please grant me many many more breaths because I want more and more and more of these things.

Even when it’s bad, a bad day, a bad week, month, year - I’ve got my sweet things to keep me here.


And so I stay alive….

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